I’m so use to a go go go,
Passive agreesive,
Trauma based and sourced,
Relationships that go ka-put.

The slow, the paced,
Relationship that is spaced,
Timely, respectful, honest, open…
I want but I’m not use to.

I may tread on toes as I navigate this way,
I’m living and learning as I go.

You’re not passive aggressive,
I’m sorry thats how I take things sometimes,
I’m learning what I’m not use to,
Please do take.your time.

I am aware enough to know I take the things the wrong way,
Preprogrammed, I’m changing, it doesn’t have to be that old way.
I am willing to go there, willing to learn,
Willing to embrace, willing to wait my turn.

Even when it’s not about me,
My brain is trained to think it is,
I tell it it’s ridiculous, I tell it it’s all tricks,
And I’m telling myself not to believe my old programmed ways,
I still have a way to practice, now and every day.