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The Eve of You.

It’s the eve of your entrance to this world little man,
A time I hadn’t quite planned,
A few days early,
I couldn’t escape,
Then my waters did break.

I waited and waited,
Then Khristie arrived,
We waited and waited,
Without a sign,
Khristie took off,
Brought back pizza,
My requested lunch to much.

Then you said “oh no, there’s no room for food! I’ll get this labour started extremely soon”
And from that moment, the push and the pain, labourous love,
Moaning in pain,

The labour of love,
A distant mind,
Out of focus, out of line.

My body was heaving,
And nothing would come,
Your dad came by,
Then you thought you’d try.

A blubbering mess,
There on the floor,
Two friends and your dad to hear me roar.

Time stood still, in that long afternoon,
You knew it would be evening soon,
And out you emerged,
Tiny and goopy,
Precious, loved,
You threatened to go poopy.

Oh how I held your tiny slippery body,
There in my hands,

You undeniable beauty.

And there I will stop.
The photos I’ve got,
All thanks to Mille who came quite quickly.

That day to look back on,
That day to remember,
You are my son,
I’ll keep you forever.

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Stories to make Manuals.

I can’t watch anymore,
The collapse of my chaotic world,
Only what it seems,
But that’s not reality,

In search of new perspective,
Running out of ideas,
Surely someone out there
Has another collective.

Another idea to spark my table,
To change my perspective,
To get a new angle,

To draw up my plans,
There’s a way to make it work,
Call out the people,
Who make the world real,

Between you and I,
Between myself and the tree,
Grounding,
Healing,
New family,

A bond,
A break,
A trust,
Some stuff,
Ideas thrown round like some candy fluff,

To spark a new interest,
To spark a new side,
To take a new perspective,
On yet a new and very different kind of side.

To take a moment,
To let it sink in,
A jolly good laugh,
And some secret grins…

To share some moments,
Of some hard times gone,
To have a handbook, for me to take a look,

On what you did,
How you over came,
How you split your world,
N put it back together again.

To speak and to heal,
To try and to trust,
To forge a friendship out of mutual rust.

To give some guidance,
Some here or there,
For what you have to say,
My friend,
Is all that is there.

We all are filled by ideas of trust,
Of forgiveness,
Of hearts,
Of how not to lust,

How our words impact our world,
From day to day change,
While the things we say are being hurled.

Trapped into hearts of the ones we love,
Because we’re stuck in our ways,
Because we feel stuck in our luck…

But little do we know,
If we all went to the pub,
You, me, the village and half the stuff,
Then stories be told,
Brave and triumphant,
Overcoming obstacles before words turn to nothin’t.

Young and the old,
Believe and the brave,
The witless, the weary,
The teary, the ones that rave…

For we all have a story,
All sorrows to be told,
For you never know what secrets,
They’ll have to behold.

For there might be a gem,
A snag or two,
Of how to get out of a pickle or two.

And deep down is that feeling,
So lost, so cold…
Of that little boy or girl who just lost their entire world.




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Heartfelt.

When dancing comes my way,
I catch it.

When snowballs come my way,
I smile at it.

When disappointment comes to show,
I feel it.

When I am on my own,
I can start again,
Take the wind,
Take the air,
Breathe new life into it.

Take the breeze,
Take the flow,
Let the movement help you go.

When there’s quite all around,
Let the music take abound,
When I feel it in the air,
I stop and I stare…

There’s nothing I should know,
I can take that deep hearted blow,
Because deep down I will keep,
Those memories made for me.




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Life Works

Ain’t it strange looking back on life,
How things go, how things change,
The old and the new,
Time mixed up like stew,
And by your side remain your faithful crew.

How things work, and how they end,
How everything old is new again.

A fresh perspective,
A new beginning,
The breath of life,
The old fades away,
The new temporarily stays.

The pain from last year,
The doctors bad words,
The horrible shit,
Is fading away.

I thought I’d miss it,
I thought I’d forget,
But those memories become faded in my head.

My photos lost forever,
Hidden away in a book,
No longer in my phone,
It amputated it’s storage memory.

Memories, pain, discomfort, muck,
No longer bright or bold,
Or at the touch of a button on my phone.

The pain dispersed,
Memories not lost,
But no longer in my face,
Physically they are easily replaced.

Almost right on a year on now,
I have a new phone,
The old memories have gone,


Today we get home from our last minute get away,
Where new memories where made,
Moments captured,
Bright and bold memories are now front of face.
I can move on from that horrible space.




Old Photos

Old Photos

I was thinking this morning,
Feeling down and out,
Longing for the memories that my old phone had just thrown out.

I can recall some, of the few thousand I had there;
How much can I recall? One or two here or there…

And that made me get to thinking,
Of the life which I have led,
And the memories captured in photos,
Are the ones that fill my head…

Then I got to wondering about how memories are held and made,
My grandparents couldn’t capture them,
So why am I so dismayed.

On my grandparents mantle,
They have an old photo of me,
A place where they put all of our memories.

Not capture each moment,
As a try hard photographer,
Bet they look at that photo and see,
The past times we’ve shared with glee.

I bet they look at the other side, on their wall in their lounge room,
And I bet they see who I am becoming,
And my future what I might become.

And to my grandparents those two photos are few,
But far more precious and valuable & something to be shared.

To my memories, that I probably can’t get back,
To the hard times, you can’t take those experiences back.

Then we face what good is hidden there too,
For the photos I’ve shared are far and few,
In all the photos that I’ve got,
I bet it’s the same for you.

But to my grandparents mantle, where there is only two,
They are proud and precious, and there only lay a few.

They aren’t on social media, unique to only them.

The memories they’ve captured, will never replace the feelings I’ve made with them.

Forever in my heart,
And forever in my mind,
That’s where my feeling go to and collide.

Not in photos, captured on some device,
But in those loving experience, that I’ve chosen in my mind.

So goodbye to the past, if you don’t come back that’s fine.

I’ll think I’ll be okay, with those things left in only my mind.