Oh I’m feeling bogged down,

Smashed by my body,

Attacking itself,

Because I didn’t create life,

My bodies inflamed, 

Its hot to the touch,

Uncomfortable, squeezing, expanding too much,

Drained, faint, dehydrated, disconnected,

Unengaged, tired, selfceare out the window.

I need another drink,

Anemia on the brink?

I can’t even comprehend, let alone think.

My body is screaming,

Pushing at me,

And I am responding by utterly ignoring.

I’m ignoring the aches,

The pushing pain,

The bloating,

The headaches,

That constant energy drain,

I gotta get up, 

I need to move now,

When all my body wants to do is go fast to sleep.

I force myself awake,

Needing to parent some more,

Putting up with screams, 

I fear there will be more….

My eyes are hanging,

Half out of my head,

As I start my to do list before I head to bed.