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When I say goodbye

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For it is time for me to go,
Venture out again on my own,
Away from this safe space,
Away from this family pace,
Trusting God and trusting my own,

I am ready,
Ready for real,
Ready to trust myself,
I’m ready to heal,

Not one Inch afraid of hard work,
Looking at my own self is the best work.

Now it has come where I say goodbye,
To all my dear friends I’ve had by my side,
This last 18 months has been so hard I say,
And I wouldn’t have chosen to spend it with you lot any other way,

I am so happy to lean in,
I am so happy to learn,
I am so happy to see relationships healing,
So much I have learnt,

And I take you all with me out on my new track,
All of your knowledge, everyones hard work.

My dear friends who have held my hands,
Caught me in timers, when I was so sad,
My friends who I know have been my safe space,
My whole time to heal, at our own unique pace.

I won’t be joining in on the new CTC show,
You have the best of your strength with you, you know.

I am blessed to have known you,
I am blessed to have been here,
I hold CTC close for my hearts won’t leave here.

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Embracing the New.

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I’m so use to a go go go,
Passive agreesive,
Trauma based and sourced,
Relationships that go ka-put.

The slow, the paced,
Relationship that is spaced,
Timely, respectful, honest, open…
I want but I’m not use to.

I may tread on toes as I navigate this way,
I’m living and learning as I go.

You’re not passive aggressive,
I’m sorry thats how I take things sometimes,
I’m learning what I’m not use to,
Please do take.your time.

I am aware enough to know I take the things the wrong way,
Preprogrammed, I’m changing, it doesn’t have to be that old way.
I am willing to go there, willing to learn,
Willing to embrace, willing to wait my turn.

Even when it’s not about me,
My brain is trained to think it is,
I tell it it’s ridiculous, I tell it it’s all tricks,
And I’m telling myself not to believe my old programmed ways,
I still have a way to practice, now and every day.







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Life Works

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Ain’t it strange looking back on life,
How things go, how things change,
The old and the new,
Time mixed up like stew,
And by your side remain your faithful crew.

How things work, and how they end,
How everything old is new again.

A fresh perspective,
A new beginning,
The breath of life,
The old fades away,
The new temporarily stays.

The pain from last year,
The doctors bad words,
The horrible shit,
Is fading away.

I thought I’d miss it,
I thought I’d forget,
But those memories become faded in my head.

My photos lost forever,
Hidden away in a book,
No longer in my phone,
It amputated it’s storage memory.

Memories, pain, discomfort, muck,
No longer bright or bold,
Or at the touch of a button on my phone.

The pain dispersed,
Memories not lost,
But no longer in my face,
Physically they are easily replaced.

Almost right on a year on now,
I have a new phone,
The old memories have gone,


Today we get home from our last minute get away,
Where new memories where made,
Moments captured,
Bright and bold memories are now front of face.
I can move on from that horrible space.