Love Yourself.

Love Yourself.

How are you showing up for yourself & Who do you want to grow into?

How much do I deeply care for myself? I love myself yeah, I love my kids for sure. I deeply care for myself? Not yet, I still love my kids for sure but am I being the best mum I can be if I’m not showing up for myself by deeply caring for my physical and emotional needs?

Who do you want to become as you grow in age? I want to be the one speaking up & speaking out to women to uncover their hurts and show them they have strength behind what they view as weakness, because I’ve been through my own journey and I know how strong I am because of my journey. I know other be women at breaking point are stronger than they realise too, it’s just about finding that mindset perspective & shifting to it.

Sending love for your weekend X

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We Make Ripples


We feel like a drop, in the ocean of the world,
Tiny, small, insignificant, sad,
We’re not just a drop in the big ocean waves,
No, we make impacts being here every day.

We hide ourselves, not making a splash,
Don’t wanna make waves,
Don’t wanna stand out,
But even a tiny drop has a huge impact.

Staying low, safe, downplaying love,
Is often the way to go,
Courage and vulnerability go hand in hand,
Creativity, life, bravery follow them on the land,

For we’re a splash in a huge ocean sea,
The higher we fall from, the more people see,
The bigger our splash, the bigger our ripples,
But it doesn’t come without being 100% vulnerable.

For we feel vulnerable, silly, alone,
Outside we are found to be brave, courageous, with tone,
The difference between nervousness and excitement is breath,
Take one in and slowly release all of the rest,
Step into vulnerability today, truth, authenticating, will show you the way,

For me make ripples far and wide,
Way beyond our scope,
Be messy, authentic, Raw and true,
Most of all make sure you’re showing up for you.

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Yes regret again…

Another late night for children again,
I should have said no,
Got a teething baby a’cryin,
I said yes to happiness & experience for her,
When inside I’m so very sleepy, so tired,

He’s screaming again,
My headaches began, a few hours ago at 7pm,
It’s full on bumping and making me frown,
I’m tired, sore, cranky, I forgot the Panadol now,

The future it will be told, I will start saying no,
I’m not up for a late night with screaming kids in tow,
All while you entertain her with a show,
Unless you’re keeping her over night,
It’s too late for me,
It’s my bedtime, goodnight.

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The early AM team…

I’m tired that they tag team,
One after the other,
Crying, screaming, sooking,
Leading one another,
It is 1am, and I’ve been up twice now,
All for over nothing,
Didn’t really want me,
Didn’t respond when I asked,
In fact I was

Completely ignored,
Like she never called,
Now a screaming baby,
In the room not so far away,
Screaming because he heard his sister,
Crying as she lay,
And in these morning hours,
I can not be annoyed,
Tired, I slept early because I was sure,
Good night’s can’t happen twice in a single row…
Gotta allow for the rough night’s because they tend to follow row.

And now the house is quiet I hear my stomach rumbling,
I’m feeling thirsty, and quite annoyed,
But now I’m all tucked in, so snuggly…

Sorry body, not tonight. I’m not getting up again.
Don’t wanna smash my face in to the wall or trip or stumblin’,
And so instead I’ll talk to God,
And yet the baby has woken yet again,
This time smashing his head on my nose,
I’m so tired, God knows,
I pray he goes just go back to sleep…

And in the morning when he wakes, he will be happy that he did.

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Kids.

I have a headache from kids scremaing all day,
Ones at unfair justice’s facing her world today,
The other is crying when she teases, and gets her hair pulled,
The other is crying, missed a nap because he could.

I am tried. Tired of talking.
Tired of describing.
Tired of instructing.
Tired of the screams that come my way,
Caz someone looked at her toy the wrong way…

As they belt up again,
Not pitchy yet,
Lung full of air,
The nosie that erupts,
Rattling my ears, muting out my brain,
No wonder I can’t concentrate,
There’s no wonder why, not today.

And the preteen is due home any minute now,
That’s a touchy dance around her day at school,
And if she doesn’t listen,
Oh if she doesn’t respond,
I could be balling my eyes out the entire night long.

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The Rooster Alarm.

Sleep.
Doesn’t come easily as a single mum….
Someone’s down the roads rooster being the household alarm….
Waking my kids at early AM,
I can not get a handle on sleep again.

I’m knackered and anxious,
Stung thin…
While the rooster Crows at break of day, even before then.

And I’m exhausted once alone, to do the best job I can,
With the kids dad telling me I’m failing them,
They run away,
From responsibility,
Don’t wanna deal with their lives,
Not the ones to deal with their crap,
Fob it off to the next females lap.

I’m exhausted I’m tired,
The days are young,
They won’t last forever,
I wish I could believe that statement, clever.

For I know one day life will become simple,
And I won’t as frequently see my kids dimples,
But right now time drag’s,
Another day on little sleep,
Tired and weary, and yet my patience to keep…

So I pace myself,
Do what I can,
Listen to my body,
And learn to accept offers of help from my family’s hands.

For I am weary, tired,
Slightly alone,
Seeking comfort in God,
I’m never alone.

But man this is tough,
It’s so hard I say,
And toiling me in almost every way.

These days are short,
These numbers on sleep; futile,

They won’t last forever,
But boy does time stand still,
Thanks to the rooster who lives up the hill.





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How to Fix a Meltdown

It feels like thunderstorm
Loud, heavy, damp
It feels like lightning going
Snap, crackle, crack.

It feels like peace,
Untethered joy,
Contentment,
Happiness,
The gladness, oh boy.

Change is happening,
Three sixties occuring,
All that was needed was a little connection.

When old habits come,
When it’s a full on meltdown,
I grab her a little,
Wobble her arm,
Nonverbal connection
In overwhelm,
Is all that is needed,
To make us safe and well.




*This is a story of how I helped my daughter come out of a meltdown, I connected and made her giggle. This is not advice you need to take on or implement. This is my opinion and experience.