My body refuses to function,
From my navel down,
I can’t do anything,
I’m seized up,
I’m only managing to lie down,

I sprained my lower back,
The inflammation still abounds,
Oh the pain is unbearable,
Especially when my kids playing on the ground.

I can’t even move,
I feel so invalid,
I can barely function,
But I have so much to do.

I wonder if the pain is there from stress in the past year,
The trauma, the events,
Captured in my lower back,
There because that’s where I laboured,
It may have been injured.

So my feelings stuck in my body,
Tight n tense,
Clearly unprocessed and jarred.
Upright, uptight.

Stabbing pain as inflammation shoots through,
Burning and scraping with it’s claws,
My poor back, makes me roar.

Garlic, tumeric, ginger infused honey,
To help my inflammation become at bay.
Got me through so many hard times before.
This stuff keeps my soul sunny, hey.

My whole lower self is tight, seized up,
An aftermath of it fighting itself,
Working too hard,
The underside of being an independent woman,
My body can’t hack it any more,
But the man I had was not quite so helpful,
Only making me feel like his mother,

How I yearned for his help, his assistance his hands to support me through the hard times,
He ran away. Leaving me with all the bits,
The mental mess to deal with of having those hard times.

How I wanted him to stick by me.
Be my rock,
Listen to me,
Not question n doubt me.

Asking for help fell on deaf ears too long,
My body not coping, almost breaking,
But to him it must be that I was cheating,

No my body’s not coping,
I’ve been saying all along,
Pregnancy stuff, bodys not strong,
Muscles are weaker and hope not for prolapse,
It didn’t but now my body feels like it’s in collapse.

Friends got me magnesium,
Pain releif cream, starting to feel better,
Hours later I can fully function,
Feeling better as I go,
I’m not better still
Just recovering,
On a pill.

Two weeks I’ve got to go,
Take it easy, with the kids in tow,
My body is not once what it use to be,
How long can my body cope with me being me,

I must change my mindset,
Help to be sought,
I must lean on my family n friends,
My only resource,

I have got to be strong,
Take it as it comes,
Breathe through the rest,
While I beat to my own drum.