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We Make Ripples

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We feel like a drop, in the ocean of the world,
Tiny, small, insignificant, sad,
We’re not just a drop in the big ocean waves,
No, we make impacts being here every day.

We hide ourselves, not making a splash,
Don’t wanna make waves,
Don’t wanna stand out,
But even a tiny drop has a huge impact.

Staying low, safe, downplaying love,
Is often the way to go,
Courage and vulnerability go hand in hand,
Creativity, life, bravery follow them on the land,

For we’re a splash in a huge ocean sea,
The higher we fall from, the more people see,
The bigger our splash, the bigger our ripples,
But it doesn’t come without being 100% vulnerable.

For we feel vulnerable, silly, alone,
Outside we are found to be brave, courageous, with tone,
The difference between nervousness and excitement is breath,
Take one in and slowly release all of the rest,
Step into vulnerability today, truth, authenticating, will show you the way,

For me make ripples far and wide,
Way beyond our scope,
Be messy, authentic, Raw and true,
Most of all make sure you’re showing up for you.

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When I say goodbye

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For it is time for me to go,
Venture out again on my own,
Away from this safe space,
Away from this family pace,
Trusting God and trusting my own,

I am ready,
Ready for real,
Ready to trust myself,
I’m ready to heal,

Not one Inch afraid of hard work,
Looking at my own self is the best work.

Now it has come where I say goodbye,
To all my dear friends I’ve had by my side,
This last 18 months has been so hard I say,
And I wouldn’t have chosen to spend it with you lot any other way,

I am so happy to lean in,
I am so happy to learn,
I am so happy to see relationships healing,
So much I have learnt,

And I take you all with me out on my new track,
All of your knowledge, everyones hard work.

My dear friends who have held my hands,
Caught me in timers, when I was so sad,
My friends who I know have been my safe space,
My whole time to heal, at our own unique pace.

I won’t be joining in on the new CTC show,
You have the best of your strength with you, you know.

I am blessed to have known you,
I am blessed to have been here,
I hold CTC close for my hearts won’t leave here.

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A Thank You Gift.

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To you, the people that like and follow my posts,

even if you are new, thank you.

I created this page to process, in a way,

My fleeting fears and hurts…

As I posted, you guys saw and liked my posts some more,

Today I say thank you,

For supporting me in this small way,

You’ve all been on my mind,

So here’s a gift to say thanks,

Some monthly mindful gifts,

Enjoy.

https://learnworlds8.aweb.page/p/666bd2a9-cee0-4cc6-a326-89427bc043d6

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Yes regret again…

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Another late night for children again,
I should have said no,
Got a teething baby a’cryin,
I said yes to happiness & experience for her,
When inside I’m so very sleepy, so tired,

He’s screaming again,
My headaches began, a few hours ago at 7pm,
It’s full on bumping and making me frown,
I’m tired, sore, cranky, I forgot the Panadol now,

The future it will be told, I will start saying no,
I’m not up for a late night with screaming kids in tow,
All while you entertain her with a show,
Unless you’re keeping her over night,
It’s too late for me,
It’s my bedtime, goodnight.

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The early AM team…

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I’m tired that they tag team,
One after the other,
Crying, screaming, sooking,
Leading one another,
It is 1am, and I’ve been up twice now,
All for over nothing,
Didn’t really want me,
Didn’t respond when I asked,
In fact I was

Completely ignored,
Like she never called,
Now a screaming baby,
In the room not so far away,
Screaming because he heard his sister,
Crying as she lay,
And in these morning hours,
I can not be annoyed,
Tired, I slept early because I was sure,
Good night’s can’t happen twice in a single row…
Gotta allow for the rough night’s because they tend to follow row.

And now the house is quiet I hear my stomach rumbling,
I’m feeling thirsty, and quite annoyed,
But now I’m all tucked in, so snuggly…

Sorry body, not tonight. I’m not getting up again.
Don’t wanna smash my face in to the wall or trip or stumblin’,
And so instead I’ll talk to God,
And yet the baby has woken yet again,
This time smashing his head on my nose,
I’m so tired, God knows,
I pray he goes just go back to sleep…

And in the morning when he wakes, he will be happy that he did.

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Indirect Discrimination

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Thanks Officeworks & Supercheap

Photo by Thiago Matos on Pexels.com

Click and collect for a few hundred dollar phone,

Easy right? But that answer is no.

Not when you’re exempt from wearing a mask,

The staff there give you a cold shoulder,

For ID they didn’t even ask to prove I was me.

I had the exemption in the bag on my hip,

The door greeter instantly turned away and didn’t want to see,

Acting as if I was diseased.

I am a healthy person with anxiety,

And my calm down technique is to breathe.

I didn’t enjoy going to the stores before,

Thanks social anxiety…

Now with these new mask mandates and people confused about the laws that go with,

The courts can’t ask to see my exemption, needing to voluntarily show it

But that’s not SuperCheaps self-inflicted law… 

Who argued their rights with me just inside their door…

Respect is all we exempt ask,

Today was a different show, one I didn’t quite expect,

I walked to the desk and stated my name and told to stand by the door…

Grumpily handing me over my phone,

No ID, no proof, no checking on me at all.

Lucky for them I am honest is all.

How did they know I wasn’t someone else,

No photo ID, nothing did they ask.

Silently yelling “Get OUT OF OUR STORE”

We will only put up with you because its law.

I hate this scenario,

For I am not diseased and I don’t like to put on a show.

I do click and collect to minimise my time,

But the way they treated me was just not fine.

It’s rude and unjust and very unfriendly,

I am not in it for show,

I just want my shit and just let me go…..

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Oh child.

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Oh child, your whinging at me says “I love you” to me,
Then I say it back to you,
You stop still and listen,
A smile comes on your face as take a breath, relax.

Oh child when you want attention,
You’re screaming at me,
You’re upsetting your siblings,
Sometimes a hug is all you need.

When I stop and pause at life,
Oh children you make me glad,
Your tantrums, your spirit,
Your haste and you screams all communicate something bigger to me.

For I take them as the physical nudges you love,
Bopples your head, making you giggle, lifting the sad.

For sometimes it’s just the “I love you” you seek,
Its whole and enough and you smile when I speak.

And sometimes it’s a cuddle,
Just a mummy hug you need,
It just comes out as squabble,
Screaming instead.

For sometimes it’s the care behind the actions,
Something is needed,
Somethings been subtracted.

With a little effort from me,
I know it can seem chaotic and crazy,
Don’t go fool me,
It’s deep, its whole, it’s collected, full of soul,

For child, you’re me and I’m giving you grace.